Where did my name come from?

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Well I was born in the late 80s, and once I was pushed out and cleaned up. My mother name me Rashad. I was born blind in my right eye. I never really got a full explanation of the reason why I was born blind. I know I was supposed to be a twin but my other twin died while we were inside my mother’s belly. I always wondered if I was responsible for the death of my twin but I guess we will never know.

Being born blind meant, my right eye never developed into a normal looking eye. So every time I came in contact with a new person, the first thing they would notice is my birth affect. People can be really cruel to people who are different than them. I was called a beast, monster, a weirdo, and different ever since I was a baby. When you call a child something over and over again, that child will grow up to become what you call it because a child’s brain is still developing. I was an emotionally weak child, I didn’t become stronger until the summer after 8th grade year because my dad taught me that confidence is everything and I shouldn’t care what other people thought of me. So I took that as go out and get what I want and don’t care about anyone else in the process.

I lived the next 20 years by that model, I did learn to grow a little and love a few people along the way. But, you needed to show me you were loyal to me before I showed any type of love towards you.

Everything changed once I had my first kid, I knew the way I was living wasn’t the best version of myself. I knew this wasn’t the reason GOD gave me life. I started a new beginning in my life and that’s when I started going by RJ. This is where I started my JOURNEY back to the promise land! What I learned along the way is that I am one of GOD’s favorite sons. I am one of the many CHOOSEN ONES that live on this planet! WE ARE RISING UP AND WE ARE READY TO MAKE THIS PLANET GODLY AGAIN!

2 Replies to “Where did my name come from?”

  1. Hilary Tan – I am currently in the process of finding my inner goddess as I search for inner peace, find mental clarity, develop mental toughness, and crush goals. Come join me on this journey so we can live our best lives!
    Hilary Tan says:

    This is very interesting that you were born blind in your right eye. My daughter who is now 8 years old was born blind in her left eye. I thought this was due to anemia during pregnancy, but after extensive testing the doctors found a name for her condition. It is called FEVR, or familial exudative vitreoretinopathy (not sure if I spelled that right!). She has hypoplasia or underdeveloped blood vessels with causes scarring of the retina, and was born with a detached retina in her left eye. FEVR often attacks both eyes bilaterally over time, if it is not caught early. Her left eye is her “small eye” and for the longest time, she thought that everyone had a big eye and a small eye.

    I don’t know if what you have is FEVR too, but I learned that it is genetic and I that am a carrier. I am asymptomatic so it didn’t present as blindness, but I have very poor vision in both eyes with astigmatism. My son, who was not born blind in one eye is severely short-sighted in his right eye (myopia) with partial detachment of the retina which couldn’t be reconstructed, so his vision is quite poor in that eye. Like his sister, he was diagnosed with FEVR too and is symptomatic. Both of my kids have had vitrectomies (retinal re-attachment surgeries), including laser eye surgery as needed. If none of your children have FEVR, there’s a good chance that you don’t have it. or maybe they are asymptomatic like me. The only way to truly know is to see a geneticist, and the result can be determined with some blood work.

    1. Thank you for the information! I’ve never heard of FEVR before, so I don’t know if I have that or not. But I do know that both kids don’t have it and that as far as I know they have good eye sight so far. I will make an appointment with a Geneticist in the near future.

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